“Enough” came the whisper on the wind.
As quickly as the word came, I batted it away as you would an annoying fly on a hot summer’s day.
My mind processed the word “enough” so quickly and spit it back out, I imagine that even God was surprised.
God is not surprised. He knows the deepest parts of my heart and waits patiently even as I avoid, hide from and skirt the issue of becoming enough. I work harder at believing I am not worthy than I do working on the truth of who God created me to be.
When I turn away from the truth God shares that I am becoming enough, He gently cups my chin with His hands and says over and over “You are enough.” I am a work in progress and God loves nothing more than to be part of the process of me becoming me.
The old me reacts and dismisses the word “enough” as if I never heard the word or believe it describes me. The new me pauses, listens intently and turns to God in a posture of questioning “is this me”? And other times I receive this gift in humble acceptance.
But how do I make the shift from believing I am enough all of the time and not just some of the time?
The answer to this question only comes from God. He continues to teach me how to maneuver this path of becoming enough.
Here is what I am learning:
Spending time in God’s Word fills the space between not enough and enough.
When I started reading the Bible in earnest, God took me to Psalm 139. I cannot get enough of the encouragement in these words.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:13-16
God loves every detail about me and created a unique me that is like no other. That sounds like “enough” to me!
God wrote my story even before I was born. That is love! When I hide the real me, God knows those intimate details and loves me through my doubts and questioning. Read through the words of Psalm 139 again. How can you not know how much God loves you as He chose everything about you – eye color, hair color, birthmarks, the shape of fingers and toes. This is God’s greatest joy and then after He picked out each detail, He scripted a unique story and named it Mary, Linda, Beth, John, Mark or Matt. This is love!
Believing we are enough comes when we hand over the rough edges of our brokenness for God to smooth and refine with his love. It is knowing we are always in a state of becoming and that is okay. God loves our messy, beautiful selves.
Next time you feel “not enough”-name the lie that invades your soul. Turn away and claim God’s truth. Thank God for new mercies each day and bottomless patience. Grab the truth that shouts “enough” because God claimed it for you first.
Holley Gerth extends this invitation in her new book, Fiercehearted.
Let’s be the heroines
in our own wild,
imperfect, glorious stories.
Never the understudies
for someone else’s.
Today we have a God who wants us to know we are enough. There is nothing about us He doesn’t love dearly. Mistakes come and go, but God never does.
Prayers that you feel enough throughout this week!
Come join me as I share some of this encouragement at Christina Hubbard’s
today and catch her beautiful Write 31 days series.
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The beautiful picture with the word “enough” is from my friend Jennifer. She is an artist, writer and all around encourager. Please check out her beautiful work at Studio JRU
. I am so honored to have this beautiful piece hanging above my fireplace in my new home.
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I also have one copy of Holley Gerth’s new book, Fiercehearted to giveaway. I will randomly choose one reader who leaves a comment to have a chance to win. I will choose a winner this Sunday, Oct. 15. 🙂
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